Thursday, October 22, 2009

A Hard Lesson Learned...uwaaaaa!!!

20th October 2009 mark another black day in my life calender (before this it was 8th wedding had to be postponed due to the election...hmmm).

20.10.2009 started as a normal and quite a wonderful day to me. I went out to see my client at Zoo Negara and then went back to the office to have lunch with two of my frens. But then, after the start of the horrible incident.

After lunch, I went up from the parking lot towards CIMB ATM at LG level to withdraw some extra money to buy something at the book store. At that time, I was carrying my presentation folder and my organizer (which contains RM1033 in it..and the money was not mine!!!! arrrghhh). So, in order to free my hands, I had to place the folders and organizer on top of the ATM machine..(ok that was my mistake in the 1st place). I was how ever reminding myself of my things while withdrawing the money. But then, two of frens came back to me and I got distracted.

Well, I think...all of you know what happen next right? I got distracted and totally forget my folders and organizer. YES!!! THE ONE THAT CONTAINS RM1033....(and I only withdraw RM70..shit!!). Only after I went to the 1st floor, bought the thing that I needed from the book store....I realized that I had something with me. I ran like a road soon as I realized. Trust can ask Maryati or Nurul how fast I ran. wahahahahahahah

I almost scream, cry and faint when my things was no longer there. My heart nearly stopped coz I know....the chances of me getting back the things are very very very slim. I many percentage of human in this world...NO....let just say Malaysia...or maybe just narrow it down to KUALA LUMPUR that is human and ethical enough to return back my things together with the MONEY!!! the chances are like 0.008%. :((

But, I did search high and low!!! Finally, I gave up..and went back to office. As I reach the reception, I got a call saying my things are at the reception on the lower level. I ran like the road runner again....So, when I saw my things...I was releaved..coz one thing for sure, I will have to call my client to ask him for his documents again...and the envelop that contained the money is still there. However, my heart stopped again. The BASTARD only left the envelop empty.

The reception told me that an old chinese guy returned it and told her that he found it downstairs. hmmm.....I don't think he was the one who took it in the first place. He must have found it somewhere else after the first person left it somewhere....(after taking my money of course!! damn it!!)

After I cool down a bit and finally got my sanity back, I went to the security office, but to my suprise, the CCTV did not even focus on that area....that is just plain stupid to me. It only showed who goes up and down the escalator. I mean WTH is that? Later, I went to the police station to lodge a report in order to get the surveilance video from CIMB.

I really regret going to the ATM to withdraw money, coz I could have just used the money in the organizer first...and actually before this the money was not kept in the organizer. Maybe it was fated.

Now, I am just waiting for CIMB to call me back once the video is with them. I hope the bastard who took it did withdraw it's easier to track him. I'm gonna crucify him to death if I find him.

As of today, I got one happy that made me feel a bit better. Although..I still have to replace the money that's lost..uwaaaa!!! I am still waiting few other good news by tomorrow. So guys!!! Please pray for me..coz it will definately make my day!!! wooohooo!!

With one lost comes more gains, and with one bad news comes more good news!! ;)

Thursday, October 8, 2009

I've Lost Count!!! I Give Up!!!!

It has been almost 5 months since my miscarriage. I was quite okay with the is closed to the day where I was supposed to give birth, which was 20th December 2009. At this point of time, I should have big bulging belly with fat face...ahahahahaha. Well, as Malay always rezeki. Although I was never really too sad with the miscarriage, but after looking at my frens who got pregnant almost the same time as me with big belly waiting to pop and having all those experience of being pregnant, it kinda hit me. sigh.....I was supposed to be a mommy in two months time..:(

I was trying not give a damn about all this...and just lay low until it's my time. But it is quite hard to do. As the time close by, the more I felt it. The other day, I was listening to the usual....Jay Jay and Ian...that horrible hilarious morning crew, and they asked...what was your 2009 resolution and have you achieved it? hmmm....mine was to have a baby and become a parent. Almost achieved it...unfortunately...did not went through till end.

To add to all this, I just got the news that my sister in law who just got married in September (yes during Ramadhan time), is now pregnant (bunting pelamin)...sigh. I guess..I'm gonna have to handle the golden question all over again after this. Maybe there is something wrong with me...hmmm...but the doctor seems to find everything okay...except for my retroverted uterus of course. must be asking what does all this have to do with my entry title? (that is if anyone is reading this :P). Well...since I've miscarriage, I've been trying to count my cycle. All this while my cycle is always on time but after that, everything is not the same. And up till now, I have lost count!!! So I give up!!!! I think I might not even get pregnant forever.

Now, the conclusion is.....since it's too hard for me to get pregnant or maybe I'm never gonna get pregnant....I'm just gonna do what ever I want. I was thinking of going to Aussie..since my sis is there.....but was afraid to make any arrangement, just in case I got pregnant. But now, I think I'm going in December. Fuck it!!! And I'm going ATV riding, camping and hiking. urrghhh...!!!! soooo devastating...sigh.

This is the 2nd time I give up....the first one was just before I got pregnant. But I think this time might be a permanent one. hmm....just my gut feeling. :(