Salam Aidilfitri

Soon....I'm Gonna Vomit Blood

WARNING!!

Before you all read this entry, I must first apologize for any swearing words you are about to read in this particular entry. I know it's fasting month...but I am gonna vomit blood soon if I don't scream out loud my thoughts somewhere. uuurrrghhhh!!

It seems that every cycle of life has it's own questions. When we were young...teachers often asked us...what do we want to be when we grow up? Then, later...which university are you going into? After that, how did you do in you exam? Later...after a while....you start to run your own life...until it's time for you to get married. So the questions become....when r u getting engaged?? After the engagement is settled..the next question will be...so..when r u getting married? So now..I'm married. Although it was a really long journey for me to finally reach there..it was a happy moment.

But now, the most frequent question is "are you pregnant yet"?? or...."when are you getting pregnant??". There's one time..I was asked the question 3 times..by the same person in 5 minutes time. WTF?? If you are pregnant...does that mean I have to be?? B******t!! Maybe you are concerned...but I don't think you have to ask me the same question so frequent, do you? It makes me wanna answer.."Oh..I'm just having fun with having sex right now, babies come later."

Now, in the family....all the ladies who are supposed to get pregnant....are pregnant....except me of course....so each time....the question will be shoved to my face. Hello.....!!! Just becoz everyone else is pregnant....so I have to get pregnant?? And you don't have to ask me each time you see me..don't you think I would have happily share the big happy news with the rest of the world when it happens?? uuurghhh!!! I hate this KG thinking!! It's making me suffocate....and soon I'll be vomiting blood each time I have to hear the golden question again and again. aarrrghhhh!!!! Unless you are going to cover all the expenses incurred pre, during and post natal....you better shut up and never ask me that question again.

Malays always says that children is rezeki. I think Allah knows best as to when he is going to bestow us with this rezeki. Am I right?? So if it's not time....then it's not time. No need to pressure me with the question. Pressure and stress is not a gonna help me to conceive either. So SHUT THE HELL UP!!! Which couple in their right mind wouldn't want children of their own?? And furthermore, I'm gonna be 28 soon......don't you think I want a child?? But, if it's not time...it's not time.

SO, NEXT TIME YOU EVER THINK OF ASKING ME THAT QUESTION AGAIN...JUST SHUT THE HELL UP!!