A Challenging Month

Wildan is now 11 months old. It has been the most challenging month ever. I have posted about him not being well since he reached 10 months old. He had flu and cough and I think he got it from his nursery. Since then, it has been a roller coaster. He had too much phlegm that he started wheezing. There also has been a few episodes of us driving to the emergency department when Wildan's temperature rose. One time it reached 39.1. However, despite all these, he is still an active boy. Although it made me worry less, I still hate the fact that his illness prolonged.

His now weight only 8.5kg and 73cm tall. Not much physical growth since he wasn't well. Kesian anak mummy...uhuk :(

Since 30/3, I was on and off work and this week am on unpaid leave the whole week. I need to make sure he is at least fully stable before sending him back to nursery (oh I hate sending him there!!). He is now under 2 months inhaler treatment to strengthen and ensure his lungs are strong again. Things like this make me just want to quit my job for 2 years. Unfortunately, I can't afford to :(

On a positive side, he can stand free hands for about 10 seconds now. He loves his Disney Junior cartoons and will clap to all the songs he loves. He also loves to smile his cheeky smile. Sometimes I feel like biting him when he does that. Hahaha...lol Oh! And he got his 3rd and 4th tooth last week.

He has shown a lot of progress in getting better and now no more wheezing and flu. Alhamdulillah...This month he will be 1 year old...birthday party planning in progress! Yeay!!

Wildan's Diary : Time Flies

I was suppose to update this last two weeks and had out it in draft but Wildan was sick for the whole week last week. Started with flu then cough with wheezing then he got fever. Well, is is last two weeks story.

It is scary to know how fast time flies. It feels like yesterday I was updating this blog about Wildan reaching 9 months old. And now am here again to update about him reaching 10 months old.

Now Wildan can understand simple instructions like 'go get your turtle toy', 'sit and eat properly' and the word 'NO'. Although, the word 'NO' made him stop doing what he is not supposed to be doing, it only last for about 10 seconds. Only if I add 'Wildan is such a good boy'...then he may stop permanently. Notice I put the word 'may' there? LOL

He had fever last three weekends and 2 days after that (24/3/2013) I can see his first teeth coming out of his gums. Such a joy thing! I just hope he won't bite me while nursing. Lots babies tend to do that.

He is still furniture cruising, will put almost everything in his mouth and he can now stand without support for about 3-5seconds. When he wants milk he will say 'nenenenene'...which I thing he means nenen. A terms we malay use for breast feeding for babies. Lol alhamdulillah...up until now he is still fully breast fed.

I am worried about him at nursery when now I realized that other parents will still send their kids even when they are sick! End up Wil will get it too. Today he is coughing and wheezing and had to be given a dose of nebulizer treatment. I HATE this! Truly hate it! This is the second time this happen. I think I should talk to the nursery's owner. I remember reading the t&c in the registration form on not to send your kids if they are sick. I guess I should know better when I live in Malaysia. Rules are not something people follow here. Uurrghhhh!! I wanna try to find a private babysitter for Wildan.

As of today (10/4/2013) he is still coughing with slight flu. Last nite his temperature rose and it went down after I gave him his fever meds. :( I hope he is okay today.

Wildan Gangnam Style

Last 3 weeks we discover that our Wildan loves to dance and shake his head to any songs. He loves Oppa Gangnam Style by PSY. I guess he is like me. Will move to any good beat. eheheheh..here is a video of him dancing to Oppa Gangnam Style.

A Hectic Month

Up until today, March has been a hectic month for me. Be it at work or at home. Well, when you are already tired from work, anything to do at home seems twice at hard and hectic. Right about now, I am really in need of a day to pamper myself which I don't think am gonna get anytime really soon. A massage would be heavenly. Wildan had a slight fever last two weeks and he is having fever today. I had to bring him to work today coz I had to settle important things at work. I was planning to take an emergency leave but things at work can't wait. Alhamdulillah he didn't throw any tantrum and was willingly sitting and playing with my office mate while I finish what I went to finish.

I will write more when I have the time. Actually, even now am stealing time to write a short update. Will write about our family trip to Terengganu soon. :)

Ciao for now!

Wildan's Diary : The Little Precious is 9 Months Old

It seems like yesterday I was holding his tiny body in my arm. My little cikenit is now 9 months old. Another 3 months her will be 1 year old!! That's kind of scary.

We went for his routine 9 months old a bit late...about a week late. His development was on the average. He is now 72cm and 9.02kg. He can now cruise while holding on to something. My house is all tunggang terbalik because of him. Sometimes I think he can also tease me with all the cheeky things he did. He knows to kiss my cheek when I ask him to. So cute!! Habis ayaq liuq Wildan kat pipi mummy. hehehehehe.....until now he is still fully breast fed..Alhamdulillah :)

No big drama this months....he's well. The paeds said that his gums look a bit swollen so he may be teething soon. A phase I am a bit scared of.uhuhuh....

Kesenangan Dunia??

I have been working with my current company for almost 3 years now. It is the longest time I have ever been working with a company. Well, you can call me a job hopper but that is the only way for me to get a pay raise. However, the factor that made me join this current company is not really a pay raise. I just wanted to runaway from my previous sales job that was putting a lot of stress for me with its ridiculous high target. I was trying to conceive so that factor has to be wiped off.

I had made a lot of adjustment while trying to have a baby. Switch job to a much lesser pay position to reduce the stress and also move to a landed house that requires more money as well. A decision which I didn't regret making because now I have Wildan. My sweet little cheeky cikenit bambam. I miss him already!!

However now, I am trying to search and apply for a new job. I need a better paid job as all the expenses has gone up! Literally!! My pay now is what I get in 2006. Yes!! Pathetic or not? Hubby is not really making much as a government servant. So, I need to work and help him with the expenses. Even more so now that we have Wildan. Hmm...this reminds me. I've just read my dear friend Carol blog and her latest post really made me angry. Not at her but to a guy that made such a stupid remark/comment.

I think most of you know about the case where the maid throw and toss around a 4 months old baby. I even have a post on it. She said that a guy made a comment on fb on the vid that was posted on the case. He said, "bukan salah baby tu.Yang salah mak dia sanggup bagi anak dibawah jagaan orang lain demi mencari kesenangan dunia..mencari rezeki tanggungjawab suami etc..". My immediate reaction to this was..WTF? Does he thinks all those mother would rather go to work than spend time with their kids and let alone a baby that she has just gave birth to! No mother in her right mind would! Those who throw away their baby like garbage are clearly mental. We go to work because we have to. Because we need to help our husband to provide for the family. Because his salary alone doesn't cut it. Not with the high living expenses! Only few women are lucky enough to be a full time mother. I wish I am one! I am not sure if this man is married but I'm pretty sure he isn't. Maybe he has grudge against his mom for leaving him and going to work to provide for him so he feels that towards any women than goes to work and let other people to care for their baby. Cewah..mcm psychologist plak aku kan?

I cried the first day I sent my Wildan to nursery. Started sending him 2 weeks before I started working again after my maternity leave to practice. He and I both need to practice to be away from each other. Fortunately, he handled it better than me. :P I am so lucky and blessed to get a good nursery which is very hard to find nowadays.

So, I want to find a job but there's lots of things to consider. I like where I am working now but like I said, the salary is not enough. Plus, there's no yearly increment and I've been here since 2010! My current office is 10-15 minutes away from home which also where Wildan's nursery is. It helps if there is any emergency. Especially if his milk supply isn't enough. Encountered with that a few times already. My boss is kind of understanding and knows that am a fully breast feed mom so he understands my commitment. I can take off from work to attend to Wildan and pump for his supply. I am afraid that if I take a new job, my boss won't be as understanding and how will the environment be. As a new employee, I can't take off easily. They might understand but I won't really feel good about it. Right? The guy is lucky I didn't see his comment, I would have condemn him until he delete his own comment.

Now, each step in life that I take I need to consider Wildan's benefits. Am not trying to find kesenangan dunia which it would be great if I have but just trying to survive in this challenging world. I guess I have to wait until Wildan is 2 years old to make any bold move since by then he would no longer be fully breast feed so the pressure is a liitle bit off my shoulder. I didn get a job with better pay end of last year and at that time Wildan was only about 4 months old. After deep consideration I had to let it go.

Mummy love you Wildan. Even if mummy send you to nursery, know that mummy can't wait to pick u up everyday! :) muah!! No treasure in world would matter if I don't have you!!

Once Upon A Time, My Blog had Readers

I've cleaned up this blog a bit. Now it is white and easier to read. As I went through my blog I noticed that 2008 had the most updates. 55 blog entries. hmm...that's a lot. I started blogging in 2007. What happened to me? Not only that, I also have readers and comments. I will get at least one comment for each entry that I wrote. I wonder what happened. Maybe because I stop writing frequently, my blog visitors are fed up. Or is it my writing is becoming lame...pretty much like my life. Kind of boring so not really much to write about.

Not sure if most of them still read but as silent readers and do not leave any comments. If anyone is reading this...leave a comment or just say 'Hi' so that I know you are still here. Actually, I don't think anyone would read my once in a while daily rubbish rambles.