A Hard Lesson Learned...uwaaaaa!!!

20th October 2009 mark another black day in my life calender (before this it was 8th March..my wedding had to be postponed due to the election...hmmm).

20.10.2009 started as a normal and quite a wonderful day to me. I went out to see my client at Zoo Negara and then went back to the office to have lunch with two of my frens. But then, after that....is the start of the horrible incident.

After lunch, I went up from the parking lot towards CIMB ATM at LG level to withdraw some extra money to buy something at the book store. At that time, I was carrying my presentation folder and my organizer (which contains RM1033 in it..and the money was not mine!!!! arrrghhh). So, in order to free my hands, I had to place the folders and organizer on top of the ATM machine..(ok that was my mistake in the 1st place). I was how ever reminding myself of my things while withdrawing the money. But then, two of frens came back to me and I got distracted.

Well, I think...all of you know what happen next right? I got distracted and totally forget my folders and organizer. YES!!! THE ONE THAT CONTAINS RM1033....(and I only withdraw RM70..shit!!). Only after I went to the 1st floor, bought the thing that I needed from the book store....I realized that I had something with me. I ran like a road runner..as soon as I realized. Trust me...you can ask Maryati or Nurul how fast I ran. wahahahahahahah

I almost scream, cry and faint when my things was no longer there. My heart nearly stopped coz I know....the chances of me getting back the things are very very very slim. I mean...how many percentage of human in this world...NO....let just say Malaysia...or maybe just narrow it down to KUALA LUMPUR that is human and ethical enough to return back my things together with the MONEY!!! the chances are like 0.008%. :((

But, I did search high and low!!! Finally, I gave up..and went back to office. As I reach the reception, I got a call saying my things are at the reception on the lower level. I ran like the road runner again....So, when I saw my things...I was releaved..coz one thing for sure, I will have to call my client to ask him for his documents again...and the envelop that contained the money is still there. However, my heart stopped again. The BASTARD only left the envelop empty.

The reception told me that an old chinese guy returned it and told her that he found it downstairs. hmmm.....I don't think he was the one who took it in the first place. He must have found it somewhere else after the first person left it somewhere....(after taking my money of course!! damn it!!)

After I cool down a bit and finally got my sanity back, I went to the security office, but to my suprise, the CCTV did not even focus on that area....that is just plain stupid to me. It only showed who goes up and down the escalator. I mean WTH is that? Later, I went to the police station to lodge a report in order to get the surveilance video from CIMB.

I really regret going to the ATM to withdraw money, coz I could have just used the money in the organizer first...and actually before this the money was not kept in the organizer. Maybe it was fated.

Now, I am just waiting for CIMB to call me back once the video is with them. I hope the bastard who took it did withdraw money...so it's easier to track him. I'm gonna crucify him to death if I find him.

As of today, I got one happy news...so that made me feel a bit better. Although..I still have to replace the money that's lost..uwaaaa!!! I am still waiting few other good news by tomorrow. So guys!!! Please pray for me..coz it will definately make my day!!! wooohooo!!

With one lost comes more gains, and with one bad news comes more good news!! ;)

I've Lost Count!!! I Give Up!!!!

It has been almost 5 months since my miscarriage. I was quite okay with the fact....until....it is closed to the day where I was supposed to give birth, which was 20th December 2009. At this point of time, I should have big bulging belly with fat face...ahahahahaha. Well, as Malay always say...no rezeki. Although I was never really too sad with the miscarriage, but after looking at my frens who got pregnant almost the same time as me with big belly waiting to pop and having all those experience of being pregnant, it kinda hit me. sigh.....I was supposed to be a mommy in two months time..:(

I was trying not give a damn about all this...and just lay low until it's my time. But it is quite hard to do. As the time close by, the more I felt it. The other day, I was listening to the radio...as usual....Jay Jay and Ian...that horrible hilarious hitz.fm morning crew, and they asked...what was your 2009 resolution and have you achieved it? hmmm....mine was to have a baby and become a parent. Almost achieved it...unfortunately...did not went through till end.

To add to all this, I just got the news that my sister in law who just got married in September (yes during Ramadhan time), is now pregnant (bunting pelamin)...sigh. I guess..I'm gonna have to handle the golden question all over again after this. Maybe there is something wrong with me...hmmm...but the doctor seems to find everything okay...except for my retroverted uterus of course.

Okay....you must be asking what does all this have to do with my entry title? (that is if anyone is reading this :P). Well...since I've miscarriage, I've been trying to count my cycle. All this while my cycle is always on time but after that, everything is not the same. And up till now, I have lost count!!! So I give up!!!! I think I might not even get pregnant forever.

Now, the conclusion is.....since it's too hard for me to get pregnant or maybe I'm never gonna get pregnant....I'm just gonna do what ever I want. I was thinking of going to Aussie..since my sis is there.....but was afraid to make any arrangement, just in case I got pregnant. But now, I think I'm going in December. Fuck it!!! And I'm going ATV riding, camping and hiking. urrghhh...!!!! soooo devastating...sigh.

This is the 2nd time I give up....the first one was just before I got pregnant. But I think this time might be a permanent one. hmm....just my gut feeling. :(

Too Hot!!!!

My heart stopped and I literally melt when I saw this jaw dropping pics of Robert Pattinson. uuu.....he is just so hot, gorgeous and sexy. ulalala...:D. Mouthwatering.......

If being this hot is wrong...then I don't want him to be right..:P

House Hunting

Remember this post? The one where I mentioned my new neighbour? hmmm...since then..my hubby and I was thinking of moving..but since I was sick, we had to postpone our plan. Then later, I was pregnant....and after that the miscarriage. And now, hubby is away. So...until now, we are still in the same 3rd floor apartment....and everyday I have to climb three floor of stairs to reach home. Guess that may have contributed to one of the reason for my miscarriage. :(

Now, I am determine to move. We'll move the earliest during Aidilfitri since hubby is only gonna be home 1 week before Aidilfitri (gosh!! I miss him soooo much!!). But who knew house hunting can be such a hassle. We both have decide to move to a terrace house, no more appartment or condo. It's just easier for our family especially our moms to come to our home without having to climb the stairs or waiting for the lift. Ok....house type...DONE! Well, that's the easiest part. :P

Second part, location. This one is a bit tricky. Hubby works in Subang and sometimes he has to travel to Port Klang while I work in the centre on Kuala Lumpur. So to find the right location is the tricky part. Of course.....there are a lot of houses for rent situated in location that are located in the middle of both of our workplace.....but then...come the third part, budget. If we pay RM1000 just for renting a house, might as well we just buy the house. Right?

As of today, this house hunting thing is far from over. Although today I found an add of a house at a quite good location with a good affordable price, it was taken away just in a matter of seconds. uurggghhhhh!!! Back to search now. :(

Melaka oh Melaka

First of all, i am very sorry for not updating this blog for a while...(yeah....like i hv any followers anyway :P) Well, there is nothing interesting happening in my life after the miscarriage. Everyday is just like a normal life cycle for me. The only thing different is my beloved hubby is away to Melaka until 1 week before aidilfitri. uwaaaaaa.....i miss him like crazy. uhuk.

Started working at a new company...but there is nothing interesting to tell there. But i do love my collegue and boss. Yes!! My boss. ahahaha....he's just awesome. lol. So, since hubby is away in Melaka, so I spent almost every weekend there. Travelling and lodging can cost quite a lot, so I travel by bus...since hubby took my CLK660 there. lol...and as for lodging goes...we are not that picky. As long as the room is comfortable, clean and with basic necessity...we are good. So, I booked a room at Chong Hoe Hotel. The hotel is situated in Jonker Street.

The price is so very affordable....it RM45.00 per night. It's really cozy and only about 10 minutes walk to Dataran Pahlawan. But the downside is, for Muslim...it's very hard to find halal food there. Actually, to me...it's very hard to find good malay food in Melaka town. Maybe only the locals know. Even in Dataran Pahlawan, I can't find good food. There are only few choices of restaurant available...and the food court? seems older that the mall itself.

What ever it is...i just want my hubby back at home. Can't wait for him to finish up everything in Melaka. Soon....

Laugh till You Drop: Ice Age 3

Since last week was the last weekend before hubby goes back to Melaka....I asked him to treat me to Ice Age 3 movie. Aahahahah....I've always love cartoons. I even changed our Astro Discovery channel to DisneyWorld channel. ahahahahaha. I'm like a 6 year old when it comes to cartoons. I guess they made me laugh...that's why I love them. My hubby never really understands why...until he watch Ice Age 1 for the first time on HBO. He laugh his heart out. wakakakaka...now it's easier for me to ask him to watch cartoon movies together. :D

To those who haven't watch Ice Age 3 yet....please please please go watch it. I guarantee you won't regret it. It is damn hilarious. I laugh from start to finish. At some point I was laughing like no body's business until I forgot that I was actually in a cinema. I am always amazed by the imagination of all the writers who wrote such good and interesting stories that we all enjoyed so much. They must be damn creative. uuhuhuhu. I just love the Sid character...and not to forget that creature that is always hunting its nut. ahahahaha...it is just a sideline that made the cartoon much more fun to watch.

oh yeah....btw..I did watch Transformer: Revenge of the Fallen a week earlier...it was awesome. So don't miss that one too. It is humor and thrill combined. To read a hilarious review...go to DIYANAZMAN. (Diyana...kasi komisyen skit....akak promote blog hang nih) :P

Life Goes On ;)

hmmm.....it's been a while since I wrote anything here. I have a lot of incidents to write about...but never come to write about it in the end. Well....today is exactly 1 month 1 week after the grulling incident at the hospital with my miscarriage. The truth is, I am long passed that. Hey, life must go on. uhuhuhu

I am glad when everything was over before my hubby left for his outstation duty for 4 months in Melacca. He went just 1 week after I miscarriaged. Hate to think he would have to come back and forth for me if I was still in pain or in fragile condition. Everything worked out for the best in the end. Allah always know what is best ;)

Nothing much had happened in this 1 month. I've recovered completely....physically and mentally...i guess. Although....I am missing my hubby. Haven't been away for so long from him before.....not even when we were dating.....eheheh. Few of my frens were quite amazed by how I handle the incident. To tell you the truth...I am quite amazed of myself too. To be able to handle the emotional wreck that happened was a great deal. A fren of mine had the same experience, she was mopping for a long time. Luckily, she got pregnant 2 months of the miscarriage....and that made her stronger. I guess, too many things happened in my life that the experience helped me to be a stronger person mentally. I am greatful for that.

Actually, I was imagining the joy of going back for raya with a big bump on my belly. I guess we'll see if that will happen next year. uhuhuh

So....nothing much has change. I go to work everyday...and hassle through the traffic with idiot drivers everyday. The only thing that has changed is my weight. I did gain 3kg (most of it goes to my belly), bigger boobs, butt and thigh. hmmmm.....bigger boobs and butt....damn...it's a plus.....but fat belly??? Is a damn NO NO...so now am dieting to reduce it. ahahaha...but my hubby said to leave it alone...so it can be a cushion and pillow for the next baby. Yeah right?? :P