Opening the Time Capsule

Few weeks back, a friend of mine tweeted saying she was cleaning her house and she found lots of old things and one of it was a gift or something from her ex. Since then, I've been meaning to open a box which I kept all my old stuff full of memories between me and hubward. In some movies...some friends like to bury these memories and dig it up again in 10-15 years time. They call it 'Time Capsule'. It can be either the worst kept secret or simple fun-filled memories.

For me the box or time capsule contains old letters hubward (my then boyfriend) sent me when I was in college pre-university back in 1998-1999. Yeah....14 years ago. I literally cried & laughed when I read all the letters. Cried because the letter was sweet and they bring back so much memories and laughed at all the jokes he made in the letter. He never failed to make me laugh even until now. I still remember, my room-mate that time would know I was on the phone with him because I laughed too much.

One of the letter he sent me. Yeah...that was drawn by him. <3

Recently, I was really really really really into a Malay drama on TV3 with title 'Vanila Coklat'. The story evolves around Zara & Amir who studied in the same college but hated each other and end up getting married due to their parents. Eventually, they fall in love with other. However, something happened and it was their dad's who pull them apart despite their love for each other. In one of the episode, Amir sent an email letter to Zara that reads..(Sorry to those who don't read Malay language)

"Sayang,I nak you bersabar dengan apa yang menimpa kita. Dugaan untuk kasih dan sayang kita. Sebab I tahu Tuhan bersama dengan orang yang sabar. Kalau nak cakap pasal rindu, hanya Dia yang tahu betapa I rindu segala-galanya tentang you. Senyum you, ketawa you,garang you,nakal you, kuat merajuk you, sikap you yang buat I membebel...Rindu gaduh dengan you,makan dengan you...Semua. I rindu tentang kita. I harap you pun rindu I...kalau tak,ha jaga you. I gigit pipi you. I miss you my burung kakak tua. Your Aamir Ashraf ".

I just love the short letter and think it is so sweet and it doesn't really happen in real life. But what do you know...found a similar paragraph in one of hubward's letter. Like seriously!! Similar but not the same and the situation was different because we rarely see each other since I was studying. Hubward wrote.....

"Awak..entahlah, sejak dua menjak ni kadang-kadang rindu sangat kat awak, kadang-kadang rindu kat celoteh awak, kadang-kadang rindu nak tengok awak merajuk, kadang-kadang rindu nak tgk muka awak masa awak tengah marah, kadang-kadang rindu tengok muka awak tengah geram, kadang-kadang rindu nak tengok awak ketawa, kadang-kadang rindu kat lagak manja awak, kadang-kadang rindu dengan cubitan awak, kadang-kadang rindu dengan lawak awak, kadang-kadang rindu dengan sakat awak dan tak tau lah berapa banyak lagi kadang-kadangnya. Yang saya tau sejak dua menjak ni saya rindu sangat kat awak terutama sikap awak yang suka mendengar awak tu......"

Almost the same, right? Not exactly the same..of course. Sometimes, it is just worth keeping precious memories to be relived to remind us that if now, things are not really bright....it was before and try to cherish that. Alhamdulillah...even after 14 years....things are bright for us and we have each other to rely on. :)

I LOVE YOU HUBWARD!! VERY MUCH!! TILL DEATH DO US PART!! ~ cewah...terjiwang plak. :P

Okay, I'll stop here. CIAO!

Yeeehaaaa!! It's FRIDAY!!

Friday is always the best day of the week. For working class people of course. It means the weekend is finally here. I was on leave yesterday coz I have some things to settle with my mom...but today I have to go back to work :P

It was the slowest day of all! Like seriously...it felt like it took an hour from 10.45am to 11.00am. Baby hasn't stopped moving since morning and I can't sit still adjusting to him. Even right now as am writing my entry it is moving.

Nothing much happened today but I have craving to eat beef steak so am going to uptown tonite with hubby. I sure ate a lot of meat during my pregnancy. I wanted to eat Las Vacas steak but it much more than uptown steak so occasionally is ok but almost every week...not ok. :P If you haven't been to Las Vacas or have never heard of it, I will tell all about it in my blog when I go there next time. Maybe mid of this month..we'll see. They have the best steak at the most affordable price ever (for a really good steak that is, good steak is never cheap ;))!!!!

I have no plans for the weekend so far since hubward will be working tomorrow. I guess am just gonna spend my time at home doing house chores. Normally I'll have my dance class and bicycle riding session but that will have to wait till August to be resumed. ;)

Until next time...CIAO!!

Looking Back at 2011

hmmm....my last post was in May 2011. I guess my 2012 resolution should be 'updating my blog more often'. I think at this age, most people will look back of what they have done or achieve of the one year that has past. For me? Well..not much I think. Since my last post was in May 2011, I am just gonna pick up where I have left off.

I just got to know, people really read my blog. :p I used to think this blog is just my open online diary. Nothing much interesting to know about in my life. I think. Besides on and off hype which rarely happens. So, when should I start? I has been almost a year. This should be a looooong entry...LOL

So, I think those who read my blog knows am trying to have a baby, right? After taking all the test, everything came out excellent! Nothing is wrong with me or hubward. Both of us are fertile and my womb is in excellent condition. 'Beautiful' is the exact word the doctor put it. hmmm...then what is wrong? I have miscarriage twice and have been trying for the 3rd pregnancy but fail. I guess maybe our timing wasn't quite right or both hubward and me are in some kind of stress. Only Allah knows. right?

The first thing I did to go through with our plan to do IUI was stop dance class and keep aside my bicycle. Then I contacted the hospital (PPUM) to make an appointment for the procedures in September 2011. After consulting the doctor, I started taking hormone shots from my 3rd day of my period. Yes, shot! As in needle. But don't worry, it doesn't hurt one bit. I think an ant bite hurts more than the needle. The device they give you is not like the normal one they use to inject meds or draw blood but it is a special device that is easy to use. I have to take the shot on my stomach daily for 8-10 days. Within that period, the doctor will monitor my eggs. Then, the insemination day comes. This process only takes about 5 minutes but I will have to lay down for 20 minutes after that. I watched in films before that normally the doctor will put your legs up but I only have to lay down normally with my legs down. And then, the waiting begins.

To cut it short, after 2 weeks, they draw my blood and I got the result the next day. I was in a lunch meeting with my GM when I got the call. My GM knows all about it since I have to be at the hospital so many times for the procedure to be completed. He was as excited as I am. :P He is kind of like a father figure...although he is not that old. The result? POSITIVE!!! I still remember my girlfrens from TTDI were busy on our group watsapp asking me for the result. ahahaha...they were more nervous than I am. LOL. The first person I called was of course hubward. His response was more or less....hmmm...how do I describe it? In disbelief? Why I said so? Because he didn't exactly show any reaction at first. Then, 5 minutes later he called again? "Are you sure? Betol ker? Positive? Macam mana doktor tau? (how did the doctor know?)". Had to convince him a few times..then only he said ok and hang up.

Actually, his disbelief continued even after our first scan during my 7th week and saw the heartbeat. His belief only started around the 12 weeks of my pregnancy which by then I was already experiencing major morning sickness for a few weeks. However, right after I got to know I was pregnant, I started having stomach cramps. One time, I cried and was in so much pain that I sweat. It was even more painful than my painful period pain. I was worried since I had two miscarriages before, so I went to the doctor. Since it was too early, the doctor can't check for anything and just gave me MC to rest for two days. After that I was okay. I guess I just needed more rest off work.

Now is already almost end of March 2012 and am already in my 26th week. After an excruciating 4.5 months of morning sickness with all the smell allergies, vomiting and heartburn (my gastric made it even worst), everything now has started to be normal a bit. I still have my smell allergies and a very rare vomiting but now I am enjoying the little nudger moves inside of me. Ouh! I almost forgot, it is a boy. Yeah, hubward is  superbly excited!! Now my belly is practically the baby to him :P The baby is such an active one that it moves almost all day long. Not sure when he sleeps.

My little nudger at 21 weeks. <3

Okay, I think I wrote a lot already. Those who read this might be closing their eyes by now. Will try to update again as soon as possible :)

Ciao!

A Fun Filled Weekend!!

Last weekend was the fullest weekend ever! I went dancing and mountain bike riding. :)

Saturday
Woke up kind of early that morning considering that it is a weekend and did my usual routine. Later I woke hubward up as he promised to buy me a mountain bike that day. I was also excited for my first dance show. As soon as hubward woke up he browsed the internet to check the best bike that suits me best as I was getting ready to go out. eheheh...

We went out for lunch and later went to his usual bicycle shop in Klang. After much negotiation, finally I got my bike! yey!! Then, we had to go to Kepong for my full dress dance show rehearsal. It was fun and nerve-wrecking. The last time I performed on stage was a poco-poco dance for my company. The rehearsal went well but I can't say the same during the actually show. I was a bit nervous than I normally am and nearly tripped down during one of the routine. Luckily I managed to compose myself and finish the show. :P It was a fun nite and the funny thing is, I was the only Malay there.

Can you tell that I'm the only Malay there? :P

Later that nite, hubward asked whether I want to join him and his friends riding on DUKE highway. I was too tired to follow him (luckily I didn't. You'll need to read more if you wanna know why) so I stayed with the wives and hang out while watching American Idol repeat. We went back at 3.00am that nite (or should I say morning).


Sunday
I should have gone to my dance class at 9.00am but since we only arrived home at 3.00am, I couldn't open my eyes. Woke up almost noon...eheheh...and was eager to go for my first bike ride in FRIM. I haven't been to FRIM for the longest time ever and I was so shocked to know the fees we need to pay just to enter. One car: RM4.00, Per head: RM1.00 and per bicycle : RM2.00. So total we have to pay was RM10.00. That is so beyond ridiculous!

After we had our lunch, we paid the ridiculous fees, went in to park our car and prepared for our bike ride. It was exciting and hubward brought me through quite a up hill route. For a beginner, it was a bit challenging but I wasn't going to give up. So I followed him. However, as we reach about quater of the hill (1km up the hill), I can't feel my legs and I literally see stars. :P. Hubward panicked. He was so sweet and I felt the urge to comfort him but I was too busy trying to breath and making sure blood flows through my body. My hands felt numb. A few joggers stopped to help my hubward who was panicking. A lady even offered to take her car and bring me to clinic. Since this is not the first time I had this incident (as in almost fainting), I told her no thank you coz I just need awhile to recover. After 15 minutes, I regain my full contiousness and hubward had already brought our car with the help the security personel.

Hubward was so concern, we didn't continue our session and only continue at home. Now, I will need to gain my stamina first before going up hill again. 10 - 15 laps a day for 2 weeks around the park near my house should be fairly enough for me to slowly get there. :)

I think bicycle riding is the easiest and most fun way to get fit coz I am lazy to jog. :P

Gonna stop here. Until next time! Ciao!

Cleaning Spider Web. Again!

Am not sure why I haven't blog for so long. Maybe there's nothing much going on in my life to be exciting enough to be shared.

At this moment, am busy at work. A lot of paperwork that I haven't done yet. Although, the company just got a new executive to assist me. Hubward and I are still trying to find the perfect house for us. It is so damn hard to find a house that suits you best that you know worth spending for. And since our budget isn't that high, that makes it even more difficult. :(

Property price nowadays is literally gonna kill you. Last few weeks, we went to a property expo and guess what's the cheapest house available? RM680,000!!!! WTF? Who the hell is gonna afford that? And yet, our government is only helping us with 'First House Scheme' for a house valued at RM220,000. Maybe in rural area yes, you'll be able to find one but here in Klang Valley? I doubt it.

I think it would be good if they put is as loan amount per person instead of house value. If a husband and wife can combine income and afford to buy a RM400K house, with the scheme eligibility of loan amount RM220K per person, that could help with the 10% down payment. So, the conclusion is, we are still trying to find a house. :(

Besides that, as you all know, we are also trying to conceive. It has been quite a journey for us. Well, for me at least. Early this month, I went through Hysterosalpingography (HSG) procedure to check if there is any blockage in my uterus or Fallopian tube. The radiologist injected a dye inside my uterus to see the liquid flow. It was a short yet painful thing I had to go through but I want to know my actual condition. To my relief there was no blockage. The reproductive specialist even said, 'beautiful pattern'.

So, there's nothing wrong with me. Am fertile and my uterus and tubes are good. Hubward's sperms are also good and the count is high. hmmm...where did we do wrong. I think it's all about the timing. Maybe we need to have sex during the day. hahahaha....but that only leaves us with the weekend and it has to be during the ovulation. Otherwise, it will not work either. Who knew, getting pregnant could be so tricky? LOL

As of today, perfect house hasn't been found and no baby. Not giving up yet because there will always be a way. We have decide to try Intrauterine insemination (IUI) to get pregnant but since a cost is a bit high, am trying to decide the best time. Coz I might have to go through the procedure a few times/cycles.

I think I've written quite a lot. So am gonna stop here. :)

Until next time! Ciao!

The Birthday Menu Special : 'Salted Egg Crab/Shrimp'

Yesterday was my hubward's birthday and since it was a workday and he had to come back late, I decided to cook something different and special for him. I've cracked my brain to decide what should I cook and finally posted the question on Facebook. A beloved twilight friend was lovely enough to suggest 'Salted Egg Crab'. I have heard a friend mentioned that it is indeed a delicious meal, so I decided to try it. However, since I can't find crab at the last minute, I bought shrimp instead. :)

Here is the recipe:

Ingredients/Bahan-bahan:
500 gram crab/ketam or shrimp/udang
1 tin Ideal cream milk/susu cair
10 gram chilli/cili padi
2 spoon sugar/sudu gula
1 spoon butter/sudu marjein
10 gram curry leaves/daun kari
2 salted egg/biji telur masin
1 spoon chicken stock/sudu stok ayam
1/2 spoon salt/sudu garam (atau secukup rasa)
2 spoon cooking oil/sudu minyak masak

Preparation/Cara Membuat:
Clean the crab/shrimp and then fry them and put them aside.
Lated, heat your wok and put in the oil and butter. Then add in curry leaves, chilli and cream milk. Stir well until it boils then add in the salted egg and all the other side ingredients (salt and sugar) and stir to create a yellowish testure mix.
Lastly, add in the fried crab/shrimp into the mix and stir until your gravy becomes thick, dry and stick to the crab/shrimp.
Now, it is ready to be served!

Goreng ketam yang telah dibersihan dan ketepikan.
Panaskan kuali dan masukkan sedikit minyak dan marjerin.
Kemudian masukkan daun kari, cili padi & susu cair.
Kacau bahan tadi sehingga mendidih dan masukkan telur masin dan bahan perasa.
Kacau sentiasa sehingga menjadi kekuningan.
Kemudian masukkan ketam yg telah siap digoreng & kacau sehingga kuah menjadi kering dan melekat pada ketam.
Sedia dihidangkan

The recipe is from my beloved twilight friend Faliza. Thanx Faliza!! :)

HAPPY TRYING!! ;)

Just Another Step

If you follow me on Twitter, you would have read my update on Wednesday. I was nervous on getting my result. What result? Well, you will need to read more.

As most of you might know, my hubward and I have been trying for a baby since my last miscarriage in 2009. Although I think I had a second miscarriage in June 2010, I don't want to count it in. So, we have been trying with no apparent result. Yeah...no pregnancy, no baby. Sex...I think we have enough. Some say it is not good to have sex everyday (no, we are not doing it everyday). ahahaha...should give time to rejuvenate. LOL

This year, both of us will be 31 years old and to me, having a baby soon is kind of important. I don't want to be 50 and still sending my kids to school. sigh....

After trying on our own and seeing a private gynea a few times and still no success, we decided to see another gynea for a thorough check up. I did a blood test to check on my ovulation, fertility and hyperthyroid test while hubward did a sperm count test. Last Wednesday was the result day and I was nervous and anxious at the same time. The result? Fortunately, everything is good. hmmm.....

However, after consulting the doctor, I decided to take another step by taking an ACG test (I think that is what it's called). Basically, the test involving inserting a dye inside my fallopian tube and check for any clog that can block the egg to burst. From what I've heard, it is a bit painful but I guess I just have to do it to make sure.

I will have to wait for my next cycle to come before making any appointment for the test and will update again with the result.

Since everything is physically good, I guess God knows best when to bestow us with a baby of our own. In the mean time, hubward and I are still enjoying our lovely time together just the two of us. I even said to him that since I have him as my big baby and I am his, we don't need another baby. He laughed and agreed. LOL . If we need entertainment, we can just pick up one of his niece or nephew and bring them along. No string attached. ahahahaha....

So, until next time....ciao!